Conscience, Heart, Moods, Motives

Spring Clean

No Comments 06 May 2009

Press the arrow to listen to Hillsong Church sing “From the Inside Out” while reading about inner cleansing.

Scripture
Behold, I was brought forth in iniquity,
And in sin my mother conceived me.
Behold, You desire truth in the innermost being,
And in the hidden part You will make me know wisdom.
Purify me with hyssop, and I shall be clean;
Wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.
Psalm 51:5-7

Observation
I can’t scratch my own back or change my own heart. There are parts of me that I cannot reach. But the comfort is that Jesus can.

There are parts of myself that I don’t like. There is even more that the Lord sees that I do not. There is an inner part of my life that is hidden from my view and detached from my reach. I can’t do a thing about it.

But Jesus can. When David talked about hyssop he conjured up thoughts in Jewish minds of something like spring cleaning to us. Hyssop was a handy plant in their world, with fine hairs to soak up liquids like a paint brush. The people were used to their homes being cleansed by a priest with the stems of the plant. Blood and holy water changed their homes.

Application
The heart needs a spring clean, because there are parts of ourselves that we cannot reach. What a picture of a heart so pure that it makes us snow blind. No one can do that, except Jesus. He can change what I feel, what I desire, what I twist and corrupt. I’m changed from the inside out. But nothing will happen unless I ask for it first.

Prayer
Father, you want more out of my heart than I can currently give. You want to store wisdom there. But there is clutter of immaturity and sometimes rebellion. Just like I invite a surgeon to access hidden parts of my body, so I request that you will probe the obscure parts of my heart. Change my inner landscape so that I will be whiter than snow. Jesus do a spring clean in my life. Amen.

Materialism, Moods

The Indirect Way to Wealth

No Comments 02 June 2008


Press the arrow to listen to Michael W. Smith sing “Awesome God” while reading today’s devotion.

Scripture
Do not weary yourself to gain wealth,
Cease from your consideration of it.
When you set your eyes on it, it is gone.
For wealth certainly makes itself wings
Like an eagle that flies toward the heavens. Proverbs 23:4-5

By wisdom a house is built,
And by understanding it is established;
And by knowledge the rooms are filled
With all precious and pleasant riches. Proverbs 24

Observation
Wealth is elusive. When we pursue it we lose it.  It is like the pool of water on the road ahead that we speed towards only to find it to be a mirage on hot pavement.  Wealth is a backache to the body and a headache to the mind.

There is another path toward wealth that is indirect. Instead of pursuing wealth, we are told to deepen our relationship with the Lord. As a result of our relationship with him, our needs will be supplied. That relationship includes the Three Musketeers of the Book of Proverbs: wisdom, understanding, and knowledge.

Wisdom says, seek what pleases God instead of what pleases you.
Understanding advises, there is an economy you cannot see that supplies our needs even more than the economy we can see.
Knowledge counsels us in good choices not driven by fear or greed but God.

Knowledge is one of the most useful when it comes to bringing prosperity to our families. Not just information, knowledge is both the facts as well as a perception of what to do with them.  Like a financial adviser, the Holy Spirit can give to us perception that comes from the deep knowing of the Lord to make good choices with what he gives to us.

Application
Does a person need the Lord to become wealthy? No, but all wealth comes from the Lord.  A man who seeks riches may just get them, but only them. What he has is hallow and shallow because there is no relationship in it.

But if a man turns his back on wealth, and instead seeks first an ever deepening relationship with the Lord, he will find many happy surprises along the way. My call is to seek wisdom, understanding and knowledge and in them I will find many of the things I have desired. All of life must be held loosely as a gift for us to receive yet more. Only open hands can be given more.

Prayer
Father, I ask today for the riches of knowing you. Holy Spirit do life with me today and teach me moment by moment. Amen.

Creativity, Emotions, Moods, Stress, Worship

Creative Under Pressure

1 Comment 21 April 2008


Press the arrow to listen to Robbie Seay Band sing “Song of Hope” while you read today’s devotion.

Scripture
For the choir director: A psalm of David, regarding the time he fled from Saul and went into the cave. To be sung to the tune “Do Not Destroy!”
Have mercy on me, O God, have mercy!
I look to you for protection.
I will hide beneath the shadow of your wings
until the danger passes by.
I cry out to God Most High,
to God who will fulfill his purpose for me.
Psalm 57:1-2

Observation
David was creative under pressure. While most would be pacing, David was working out rhyme and rhythm of his latest lyrics. How did he do it? David turned each sigh into a song.

All of his songs display emotional honesty. He did not whistle a happy tune, he took time to be sad, angry or desperate in the presence of God. As Bill Hybels says, he learned to “ventilate vertically”. Passing through the emotion David was able to discover that space in God’s heart where there is permission to improvise, invent and envision. When we bring the whole of ourselves to the Lord we find God’s center, a place of creativity.

Application
We may write our own song or we may borrow one from another, but we must learn this secret of emotional honesty in God’s presence. Songs are made from life just as much as songs are the thing life is made of. How many fresh ideas do we miss out on because we are allowing our emotions to play at our heart strings rather than playing them back to the Lord.

Prayer
Father, I’m no where near David’s skill of writing and composing, but whether its with an iPod or a radio station, let me be one who turns the sigh into a song.

Desire, Moods, Prayer, Thirst, Worship

Playing Tag with God

1 Comment 22 February 2008

Scripture
My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.” And my heart responds, “Lord, I am coming.” Psalm 27:8

Observation
More is recorded in the Old Testament about David than any other character and his name is the last name mentioned in the Bible. The reason why is condensed in this one verse: My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.” And my heart responds, “Lord, I am coming.” What causes David to stand out among the three greats of the Old Testament was his relationship with the Lord and his ability to communicate that with others. Abraham had a friendship with God, but he related to God more like a business partner and we don’t see much of his heart. Moses saw God face to face, but we read more of the laws God gave him than their personal relationship.

David, however, left the windows and doors open to his most personal experiences of God so that we can enter into the same relationship ourselves.

It begins with God’s pursuit of David and of us. We are naive to think that we think of God first. The fact is, whenever we consider the Lord and desire him it is because he has been lonely for us. God desires conversation with us. He wants to talk with us.  He who is limitless wants to know about our finite lives; we who are bound are to be stretched into the boundless mind of God. God stoops low to meet with us and crouches into our existence because of his great love for us; we are carried further than the most distant star and deeper than the earth’s core when we enter into the mind of God.

What set David apart from most human beings is that he answered the call of God. He said, “Lord, I am coming.” He did not dismiss God with a yawn or place him on hold. He spontaneously bounded toward the Lord even as the Lord sprinted toward him. That is a relationship of love.  It was William Barclay who said, “The kingdom of God is not for the well intentioned but for the desperate.” There is one phrase that will keep us from knowing what David knew: “just a minute”. The presence of God is like a sunrise or sunset, for we have just a brief window to enjoy it. Often he will not linger to pander to our indifference.

Application
How many times in a day does the Lord nudge me with his presence? More than I consider. I cannot be passive; I must be active.  I must pursue him even as he pursues me.

Prayer
Father, today as I sense you playing tag with my soul, let me bound toward you. Amen.

Anger, Love, Moods

King Kong Moments

No Comments 13 November 2007

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Scripture
Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. 1 Corinthians 13

Observation

Naomi Watts plays the role of Ann Darrow, the beautiful actress who subdues the enraged Kong. The image of a great beast conquered by a delicate woman has lived with us since the movie first aired in 1933. Can something that fragile overcome something that strong?

Yes because there is a spiritual principle behind this. God is love and if he wants to conquer the world he does it through loving us. The cross of Jesus has been a show stopper for the human race. Love is like that.

There are King Kong moments for all of us, when instincts overcome reason and we can be on the edge of words that cannot be unspoken or rashness that will leave indelible skid marks on the lives of others.

How can God change the savage beast of our emotions in those angry moments? By putting love in our way. When love jaywalks across our angry path everything comes to a halt.

Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

Application
Those are words to soothe the savage beast in us that comes out of hibernation. It would do us good to read those words before plotting an irate phone call. Those words could keep us from drawing lines in the sand. We need those words like the cold water bath next to the blacksmith’s forge where glowing metal is quickly cooled.

Prayer
Father, take over my life with your love. Amen.

Criticism, Emotions, Fear, God's Presence, Moods

Feelings We Don’t Deserve

No Comments 12 October 2007

� I love this picture of Leslie my wife laughing with her sister in the background. She hates it but she’s not posting this blog!

I love this picture of Leslie my wife laughing with her sister in the background. She hates it but she’s not posting this blog!

What the Bible Says

Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength. Nehemiah 8:10

What My Mind Thinks

Moods can be like a frigid draft slithering under the front door on a chilly night. The icy fingers wrap themselves around the dangling sock feet of our emotions. Just like drafts are felt before the open door is seen, so too moods can take control of our thoughts before we really know why. A whole day can be spoiled by a mood that slipped through the door we left ajar to disappointment.

How can we caulk our soul to insulate it from moods? The answer is to warm ourselves in the emotions of God. The bright outlook of the Lord gives us permission to feel what our circumstances say we have no right to experience. God is immersed in joy and we are free to live in liberty no matter our mood.

For the first time in 70 years God’s people were ready to read the Bible. It was a great day. There had been a lifetime of national mourning. Now they were ready to obey. Ezra and Nehemiah had made a fiesta out of the first public reading of the ancient scrolls. But the party soon turned into a funeral as the people realized how right God’s word is and how wrong their lives were. Waves of regret swept over them. There is a difference between guilt and regret. Guilt is for sin unforgiven. Regret is for the day after forgiveness.

What Nehemiah did next was surprising. He stopped the people from feeling badly about their past. It was time to move forward. Guilt must be dealt with, but regret must be left behind. There are mood moments when we wish we could push the backspace button and delete days lived and words spoken. God gives us the freedom to experience feelings we have no right to feel. That’s grace. God feels joy so we can too.

Getting My Heart to Cooperate

Have I given myself permission to feel today what God feels? Mood adjustment was so important to Nehemiah that he and the leaders moved through the crowds insisting that God’s people go on with the party as planned. If it mattered that much to them, it should to me as well. If we reach into our heart there is an aquifer of joy that is just beneath the surface. The joy of the Lord is our strength…and our gift today.

What My Spirit Prays

Father, I open my heart to emotions that I don’t deserve today. Your joy is my reward. Help me not to live beneath my privileges of joy. Amen.

Anger, Disappointment, Emotions, Grief, Moods, Overcoming, Setbacks, Subumission, Waiting

The Beauty of Sorrow

No Comments 08 June 2007

Listen to music while you read this entry.

Mercy Me So Long Self 

Scripture
“Frustration is better than laughter, because a sad face is good for the heart.” (Ecclesiastes 7:3)

Observation
When I read those words today I had a ‘monback moment” – you know, when the Bible snags your soul like a rosebush and says “come on back here now and study this bloom.” Most translations say “sorrow is better than laughter.” But this translation uses another word that sends me hunting to find the true definition of the word “sorrow” or “frustration”. (By way, here’s an easy way to do word studies on line.)

My dictionary tells me that the word in Hebrew means both “sorrow” and “anger” at the same time. It seems that the word “frustration” is a good compromise between the two. Grief is accepting that something lost is lost. We can feel sorrow and anger about that loss at the same time. That frustrating sadness is a good thing.

Learning to live without something we once depended upon is good heart exercise. It obviously brings us to our knees but it also brings to the surface what laughter will only disguise. Not getting our way is the best way forward.

Application

This scripture leads to a radical new direction in prayer. Instead of praying, Lord change my condition! It calls me to pray, Lord change me!

Prayer

Today, Father, I thank you for the loss of things I’ve depended on. Let the limp I walk with cause me to depend upon you more. Amen.


I'm Phil McCallum, a husband, father and most of all one of the people Jesus loves. I'm privileged to serve Evergreen Community Church in Bothell, Washington as Senior Pastor where people love enough to believe "it's all about relationships." In 1982 I made a vow to read God's word daily and apply it to life. Each day I write out my reflections. Some days I post those on my blog. It's a little personal but it's my hope it will stir you to go deeper still. Learn how I do my devotions. These are my thoughts and not necessarily those of the ministry I serve. By the way check out the computer study Bible Glo. I highly recommend it.

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